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Explosions [07 Aug 2005|09:50pm]
sometimes when i sneeze, it feels like my brain's gonna explode.

i'm glad it hasn't yet. i need it lots.
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[23 Jun 2005|06:59pm]
humph.
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stole from jenna [23 Apr 2005|09:50pm]
I'M BORED.

[x] I am straight.
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[ ] I don't like Bush because from what I hear, he is dumb.
[x] I don't like Bush with my own reasons to back it up.
[ ] I am for Bush.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[x] I open up to others easily.ish
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world
[ ] I watch the news.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I own an iPod or MP3.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[x] I love Disney Movies.
[x] I am a sucker for hair/eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I curse regularly.
[ ] I paid for a ring tone
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[X] I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation.!!
[ ] I love Spam.
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I would wear pajamas to school.
[x] I own something from Abercrombie.
[x] I have a job.
[ ] I love Martha Stewart.
[x] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self conscious.
[x] I like to laugh.
[ ] I smoke a pack a day.
[ ] I loved Perks of Being a Wallflower.
[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[x] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[x] I have scars.
[ ] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I see a therapist...
[ ] I love white chocolate.
[x] I bite my nails.
[x] I am comfortable with being me.
[ ] I play video games.
[ ] I'm single
[x] I'm in a relationship.
[x] I've been lost in my city.
[x] I've seen a shooting star
[x] I've been to another continent
[ ] Had a serious Surgery
[x] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[ ] Made out w/ a stranger
[x] Hugged a stranger
[ ] Been in a fist fight
[ ] Been arrested.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[x] Swore at your parents
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts
[x] Been in love
[x] Been to a casino
[ ] Been skydiving
[ ] Broken a bone
[x] Skipped school
[ ] Flashed someone.
[ ] Saw a therapist
[ ] Done the splits
[ ] Played spin the bottle.
[ ] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[x] Bitten someone.
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[x] Believe in a God
[x] Gotten the chicken pox
[ ] Kissed a member of the same sex
[ ] Crashed into a friend's car
[ ] Been to Japan
[x] Ridden in a taxi
[ ] Shoplifted
[ ] Been fired
[ ] Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex
[x] Had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
[ ] Stole something from your job
[ ] Gone on a blind date
[x] Lied to a friend
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher.
[ ] Celebrated mardigras in New Orleans
[x] Been to Europe
[ ] Slept with a co-worker
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[ ] Had children
[ ] Saw someone dying
[ ] Been to Africa
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day
[ ] Been to Canada
[x] Been to Mexico
[x] Been on a plane
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar
[x] Eaten Sushi
[ ] Been snowboarding.
[x] Been Skiing
[x] Met someone in person from the internet.
[ ] Been to a moto cross show
[ ] Lost a child
[ ] Gone to college
[ ] Graduated college
[ ] Done hard drugs
[x] Taken painkillers
[ ] Had someone cheat on you
[ ] Would have sex with one person on your lj friends list.
[ ] Would have sex with more than one person on your lj friends list.
[ ] Would have sex with more than one person on your lj friends list at the same time.
[x] Still check under the bed sometimes...just in case.
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[22 Apr 2005|11:05pm]
saw a green man today.

wonder if he's related to the jolly green giant.
the grass is always greener on the other side.
must be cause he has a green thumb. green beans.

thats all the green stuff i can think of...
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[15 Apr 2005|12:39am]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | deafening silence ]

it is 12 39 and i officially cant sleep. probably cause ive been getting up at like noon. spring break seems to be drawing to a close but its been fun. i've hung out with caitlin every single day lol and yanna and clara and lissa most other days. and last night i hung out with john =) yeah, being famous is tough. damn paparazzi. and i kicked sand off a ledge from some random sand alley and the police were on our tails all night...oooh man. we got away though. so suspicious.

and now for the epic story dun dun DUN:
Wednesday afternoon. calm skies. a slight breeze a-blowin'. caitlin, yanna, clara, and i were out on the lake for some seemingly innocent kayaking. they were one person kayaks, but we found it easy to fit two people on each. or so we thought. as i donned my life jacket and got into the kayak with maryanna, i thought what a pleasant trip this would be. we started a sailor's log. but by day 27, things started getting rough. our trusty paddle had been paddlenapped and swapped for some other paddle that didnt paddle quite as well. i made maryanna row b/c i was so distressed at the missing paddle. the pirates in the enemy ship started catching up to us, taunting us with their singing! we feared mutiny and sped up, seeing the dam drawing near. land ho! but alas, twas too rocky to get off and stretch out our poor, atrophying muscles. i feared we would get scurvy. we started towards the clubhouse, hoping to jump ship there. the seas started getting choppy. caitlin called john. we reached our destination. i climbed out. i hung up the phone and got back in the kayak, only now we had switched shipmates. clara and maryanna smoothly sailed off into the horizon, but it was treacherous for caitlin and i. oh, how the ship swayed! caitlin clung for dear life to the "dock", only making us tip more. i finally convinced her to release her kung fu grip and we floated away. we began to paddle and next thing i know im swimming in packanack ocean. it's cold. man, you've never felt this kinda cold. i lost my cool...my nerves of steel shattered. though i mentally blocked it out, apparently i started screaming that i can't swim and that we were gonna drown. what crazy talk. i swim just fine, i had a life vest, and the water was only up to my knees. caitlin salvaged what she could of the ship and gave me a boost up to dry land. i helped her up and we stood there. it was still cold. and we were stuck in the boatyard, which had barbed wire fences. this story is turning out really long, i'll summarize, though rather pointless now. we called mrs. vassoler and she came. i wrapped a blanket around myself and went to the tosis. they gave me dry clothes and pretzels. i called my dad and he picked me up. i went home and showered. but man was i cold.

the end.

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i'm mrs. brightside...JK...what a terrible joke [03 Apr 2005|09:32pm]
[ mood | <--aww, he's so cute ]
[ music | i can make my own music *HUMM* ]

sometimes you have to look on the bright side of things.

so what if my basement flooded and the roof leaked and my power went out?

at least i got to have an indoor pool! i learned that snow boots DO float. i learned to survive with only my senses and the light of my cell phone. i learned that my family keeps the flashlight in the fireplace. WELL OF COURSE, why didn't i think of that?!? it's the only LOGICAL place to keep a flashlight...in the pitch darkiest and coldest and scariest and most cobwebby place in the house!! durr.

and for a short amount of time, i got to live like the pioneers. they too had no electricity and only cheez-its to survive on.

as you can see, not everything is as bad as it seems.
so cheer up all you sally sadpants-es out there!

=)

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[28 Mar 2005|07:25pm]
[ mood | sad ]

"always remember 3/27/05

*make this an entry in your lj, show respect and always remember kv* "


R.I.P. Vece ♥ ♥ ♥
we'll never forget you.




only the good die young <3

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penny for your thoughts [28 Feb 2005|12:26am]
[ mood | pensive ]
[ music | title and registration- death cab for cutie ]

i don't take enough risks.

the reason things get all borified, well, it's all my fault.

but risks are scary. i already know what it's like on the this side, it's the other side that's questionable.

so what is the problem?

fear of the unknown? cowardice? laziness?

everywhere i look, i hear about how life is about taking chances, jumping in head first, creating your own destiny.

but then when i look other places, it claims that fate will pave the way, what is meant to be will happen, etc.

so what is a person supposed to believe? am i supposed to wait for stuff to happen to me? cause so far in life, i don't know what i've been doing. it's not a matter of fear, it's a matter of "now" being pretty okay as opposed to maybe great and amazing.

but what if i strive for great and amazing, and there is none? then all i'm left with is pretty okay, and that's kinda scary all in itself; that pretty okay (and worse) is the only option.

not that i mind pretty okay. i'm not complaining or even talking about anything in particular, just some late night philosophizing.

but what if i look back on my teen years and regret stuff? right now, of course i have regrets, but it's not like they're substantial in the grand scheme of things. of course, i am going make some hugiant mistakes in the future, the kind that will screw up my life indefinitely and alter my course forever. i don't know what they'll be, but i'm great at screwing up and will not be able to refrain from doing so. but i'm not talking about those decisions now, i'm just talking about right now.

so what to do?

it figures that i turn deep in the dead of night. serial killers probably philosophize like this. then they decide to take risks and that's when the danger starts. serial killers shouldn't have to worry about things like these, they should stay with 'pretty okay'. but i'm not a serial killer [yet] so maybe i shouldn't stay.

 

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EN ESPANOL!!! [21 Feb 2005|11:40pm]
[ mood | WTF! ]
[ music | it's very cold in my room ]

ok, i have decided that this is lj worthy. as many of you know, there is a spanish lady that i have been conversing with on a regular basis ever since i got my cell phone. she apparently has a daughter, named isabella. isabella is having insurance problems. so tonight, i was at meg's w/ melissa and crazy spanish lady called and accosted me as follows:

*ring*
Maria: hello?
Spanish Lady: hola rejkfddfsjkdfsoiewrlssfh si?
ME: no habla espanol!!!1!
SL: okay, i talk in english!
ME: okay
SL: you have stolen my dora's phone! [daughter's phone i assume]
ME: don't lie! i have not!
SL: yes, you have
ME: no i haven't
SL: yes, you have
ME: no i haven't
SL: yes, you have
ME: no i haven't
....

SL: you stole my dora's phone!
ME: did NOT!
SL: okay tell me your number
ME: you obviously already HAVE my number!
SL: tell me your number!
ME: NO!
SL: you have stolen my dora's phone and are keeping it and using it and i know i have the right number!
ME: no, i have not. you have the wrong number. my phone is RED!
SL: i know where you live
ME: stop lying! you do not!
SL: you live on street 5 and i going to come to your house!!
ME: i do not and i didn't steal your phone!
SL: LIAR!
ME: no, YOU'RE a liar!
SL: i am going to call the police on you!
ME: FINE! GO AHEAD AND CALL THE POLICE!
*i hang up as angrily as possible on a cell phone keypad*

as you can see, i am obviously right here. i did not steal her phone. and i do not live on "street 5". this has been going on for two years and i am growing quite weary. all kinds of crazy in this world, let me tell you... i was threatened, but at least i stood up for myself.

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oh well [29 Jan 2005|08:02pm]
[ mood | cynical ]
[ music | until the day i die- story of the year ]

If I had a little bag of peanuts for everytime someone screwed me over...I'd be able to satisfy the cocktail needs for all the 747s in Newark International Airport.

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"Procrastinators Unite...Tommorrow." [24 Jan 2005|10:25pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]
[ music | Always- Blink 182 ]

i've been thinking. if i were to put off procrastinating until tomorrow...what would i have just done?

anyway, i'm aware this livejournal has taken a turn for the worse. but the html on the other one slowed down everything and i didn't like that very much...

in alg2 today, we had a sub cause mr tell was probably snowed in on his farm with the horsies and cowsies hahaha. so i worked with caitlin, meg, and jackie. a total of three problems were done. and i was told a very disturbing story about the demise of caitlin's hamster. his front teeth grew so large and started growing into his heart and then he couldn't eat because the teeth were just so enormous so he had a seizure in caitlin's hands from hunger. so mr. vassoler put him in warm water to resuscitate him and poor mr. hamster tried climbing out and then ended up expiring with one final twitch as caitlin screamed hysterically. OMG, that's the saddest story ever, i swear i'm not saying this sarcastically. he was buried on march 13th two years ago. RIP. :(

in english..i was so hyper. SO hyper. i just laughed all period and dragged melissa and maryanna down with me. they probably got no work done. i haven't been in this good a mood in a long time. in history (before and after), mr. rewick and mr. kalens (yeah..spelling) ambushed some more smokers! in lunch, i taught charlotte it really wasn't that bad licking hiliters and i won myself a convert (with the yellow). perhaps soon we'll move on to green..and finally, when she's ready, pink. i might even introduce her to bong's apple scented hiliter..mmm. bong doesn't really let me touch her stuff anymore :(. oh yeah, charlotte and i also discovered we both have an eccentric love of sand..AND THEN IN LATIN...sheffy was our substitute!! not that that means much...he seems to have a loathing of me in every class i'm in that he substitutes for.

i have developed some weird procrastination habits..like hand-washing. and after that, you have to liberally apply moisturizer. don't forget that step .

that's about it.
how are you?

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[18 Jan 2005|09:51pm]
[ mood | anxious ]
[ music | i don't wanna know- new found glory ]

whoa update much?
aww i love this song

i was so out of it today. i leave most of my books home all the time, but today i even forgot the few i actually do bring... and then i left my house late..and as i ran towards the looming bus i realized this was not going to be a good shoe day. ow. MY LEGS ARE DYING :(

and then..right before 1st period we were leaving and melis came in after the 5 minute bell and we said bye and left. so as soon as i get to algebra i realize...i do not have my purse on my person. or anyone else's person. so i limp back to my locker..and it is not near there. it is not IN there. it is not anywhere!
i slump against the locker, pondering the speed at which things get stolen in wayne valley when i see caitlin walking towards me. i'm like whoa. melissa had rescued my purse and brought it to mr tells room! she was consequently late for 1st period, but i am eternally grateful. she has been saving my ass since last year by locking my locker or rescuing my purse everytime i just leave them there lol. in english, we established that she is like my mommy, which is weird because janine acts like melis's mother. so janine's my grandma? haha lissa

SPEAKING OF ENGLISH- maryanna sits behind me and all of a sudden she tells me she sees a man on stilts outside. i was like what are you smoking. and then...i saw him! he was just walking around on stilts HAHA. so i yelled something about a man on stilts and everyone like looked outside but Stilt-Man had faded back into obscurity and no one else saw him :(

nothing happened the next 2 periods. in gym, aileen made me do 4 sets of 15 instead of 10, like she was doing. lol. it was decided that the ab machine "wasn't needed" today so there was no need for the complex plot to knock me unconscious and lock me outside if i tried to take over john, moe, and evan's precious ab machine. righttt..pshh. lol. and then in chem...i took a test and OF COURSE got the harder version. lunch was bagel day :)

and then in latin..i didnt pay attention. i just did everything in my power to distract bettina and bong from learning. "bong...i don't need you anymore." "Bettina, you lard. GOD." hahaha i love being hyper in latin

i suck..i dont know my continents and i am an artistic waste.

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[30 Dec 2004|09:14am]
today, at the Virgin Atlantic store, i was browsing. Scary Dancing Man was sampling music at one of the poles and began to follow me. i was afraid but not without a plan. i kept walking around the pole and he got tangled in his own headphone cord as he followed me. outsmarted again, Scary Dancing Man!

new memorable prank phone call: would you like to order a pizza? we have large, regular, and medium.
but "ovum" still lives on in infamy.

it's still raining
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[22 Dec 2004|06:00pm]
[ mood | complacent ]

today is the eve of the eve of christmas eve. i worked this out in algebra today. i should start packing, but let's be realistic, i'm not really going to do that.

i took 2 long tests today. i have a chemistry extra credit i have to do because i havent gotten ONE A on a test yet..a history pamphlet..for english, a character analysis essay, a 10 page research paper to be thought about, and "ENJOY YOUR BREAK!" in bold italics. what kind of a shit pre-christmas week is this?

in truth, i did make silly putty today. after 5 blundered plastic cups filled with colored glue. it was a Dixie cup massacre.

i got a book at the library today. yes, they have lots of those there. but anyway, it was reccomended to me by suzanne. it's about a pair of pants. i thought this was a metaphor, but so far it's literally about pants. i'm only on page 4 though, so i'n sure this will change.

so yes..my mother got angry at me for wrapping the present she begged me to wrap b/c she hates wrapping and kinda sucks at it. and i wrapped it very nicely. it was very prettyful though a little lumpy. then when i tell her i'm done she askes "oh, did you take the price tag off?" WTF. no, i did not. is that not the first thing SHE should have done? then we both throw fits and my father gets angry at me b/c he now has to go unwrap and rewrap it.

it feels like friday today. probably because i haven't done any homework. and my hair smells like a cabbage patch kid and play doh.

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[15 Dec 2004|03:51pm]
[ mood | pensive ]
[ music | blood red summer- coheed & cambria ]

THE GOOD

  • 9 days till christmas! yay!
  • i don't have any hw today..except latin..and i rarely do that
  • christmas parties tomorrow
  • 8 days till i get to go on an airplane..ALONE!

THE BAD

  • i broke a chain letter that i promised my mom's friend's son i would send...i'm a bad person
  • i'm supposed to send references for this 2 month summer medical course..but that would mean i would be in california for 2 whole months! and i would miss everyone lots..i had some separation anxiety last time and that was for less than a month! and i wouldn't be able to do summer rec! and i have no references!
  • i haven't gone christmas shopping yet..and i have no money
  • i'm so emotional lately, and it is uncool. my family agrees too.
  • there is a stranger on my porch and they seem to be stomping all over my welcome mat..i am too lazy to even get up
  • i think my grades are slipping
  • my dad commented on my atrocious math SAT score and i cried (this goes back to the emotional issue)
  • i've gained like 5 pounds..i might as well set up my cave and hibernate
  • there's fissures growing everywhere
  • i really need to get a job
  • i'm just losery all the time

as you can see, there is clearly an imbalance there, but i'm working on it. it's better i complain here than annoy you in person.

have you ever written a really simple word like "hide" and then just stared at it until you become filled with doubt that it's even spelled that way.."wait, why isn't it h-y-d-e?" and then you have to consult a dictionary.

in chorus today, i was sitting in  my seat and then all of a sudden i was in another seat and i was like whoa. and suzanne told me it's cause i got up and moved. but i don't remember getting up at all and it was weirddddd...

this entry is just composed of random nonsense.
as opposed to my other entries which have "substance." *cough*

 

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EW EW EW EW EWW! [08 Dec 2004|10:34pm]
[ mood | scared ]
[ music | a weird continuous humming noise in my ears ]

ok so i open my closet door and take out something and i close the door and on the wall there's a spider so i run to get a tissue to assasinate it but by the time i come back..IT'S GONE. so logically, i start blowing at the wall..cause you know, maybe wind makes spiders just appear . so i blow..and he appears! and starts running toward me! so i run away screaming like a girl (obviously). and during the whole situation i am wearing the native american headress i made in history. i do not know why. i could have done a raindance and washed the spider out.

so he's still in my room. i think the time is right for sleeping in another location--the living room perhaps. this is even worse than a grasshopper, cause he has EIGHT legs. how do i always get myself into these strange situations..

ps- it was a beigy brown spider. he looked like a Felix. i hope he dies soon.

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I walk a lonely road..the only one that I have ever known. [04 Dec 2004|08:04pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | boulevard of broken dreams- green day ]

i just want to go somewhere that's not here and forget everything
am i the only one that ever feels like this...or am i just cranky :\

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ARGH! [24 Nov 2004|05:38pm]
[ mood | angry ]
[ music | I BROKE THE FUCKING SPEAKERS ]

i hate being grounded. why the hell am i always fucking grounded. its like every other week i get grounded for something. the most current reason for house arrest is "maria didnt finish all her homework last saturday and worked all the way until FIVE PM on sunday finishing it..omg! what a terrible child!" it would be understandable if i like did drugs or swore at my parents or lead a life of crime or something. but i dont! i dont do anything! the last even moderately sneaky thing i did was try to hide the fact that i lost $15. but i ended up caving and told them anyway. i basically stay in my room all the time and only come out to eat or bathe and stuff. and after being bitched at for 3 months, i have straight A's and GUESS WHAT--IM STILL GROUNDED! im so pissed cause its not even like i wanna go somewhere unreasonable usually just to someones house or something. why is that so wrong? i could be a much worse child and still be grounded just as much as this! i wonder what would happen if one day i just didnt come home and didnt call or anything. i could live in A&P or the library...or my orthodontist a few blocks down. id obtain a suitcase and necessary life things and put it in my suitcase. then i could just live in that general area and i can be the suitcase lady. no one can legally apprehend the suitcase lady cause shes within her rights to wheel a suitcase around on public property. and if my parents look for me, they will see me in the streets but not know who i am cause of my suitcase. "oh look, a suitcase lady. we know that's not our daughter cause she doesn't even have a suitcase." WRONG AGAIN! they could spend years driving past the suitcase lady and never even know its their daughter. if i wore a cape, too, it would add a lot more effect: "the crazy suitcase lady with the cape of mystery."

ok, enough.
im gonna go be grounded some more
perhaps a hunger strike or cold shoulder is in order

ps- to add insult to injury, i broke my speakers with my foot. stupid fuckhead speakers. YOU SHOULD DIE.

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[19 Nov 2004|05:53pm]
hi everyone
the past week has been interesting. im going to see the play tonight w/ melis and cait and maybe meg, idk. my mom wanted to come but i said no. im lost in chemistry but i got a 100 on my polyatomics quiz *claps*. in PE aileen wasnt here today and i had no partner but john saw my distress and said he would be my partner and then i was relieved. i probably slowed his game up since i am new to paddleball. mrs moses gave john two strikes for hitting it wrong. not good strikes, like in bowling, but bad ones. i wanna do one of those

and then in lunch i sat at the ticket table again with charlotte, maggie, and marc, despite the fact that im not in drama club. then i rolled the cross country ball into the boys bathroom. it was peer pressure. so then i went to history with melis and maggie. i know its not really my history class, but history nonetheless. then melissa told me it was wednesday tomorrow. but she lies.

so then i came home and did nothing. i just realized i haven't eaten. i'll go do that now.
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[14 Nov 2004|10:11pm]
shove it.
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